"I can tell you the only true happy moment in my life was when Jude was born."

"He was all the love I ever had in my life. He was the only thing that made me feel life was something of beauty, ever."

Note from a failed suicide/murderer.

ADDED: "Jesus said it's a sin to murder. He also said to follow him you to have to lay down your life for your brother. I hope he understands."